I don’t like feeling angry. I’m not used to it. It’s an emotion that I very, very rarely experience. I think it’s safe to say that I’m fairly chill guy. But today, I’m really fucking mad. There’s just been a whole series of little things building lately and today, today I’m just ready to snap. I can feel this rage clutching my chest, my neck & forehead feel clenched, my jaw is set and vituperous thoughts far outnumber anything else.
And of course, because I’m already mad, the little things that would normally just wash over me are sticking and just making me angrier. My stress level today is just through the roof. I hate feeling like this. I want an outlet to vent, or time to process but I just don’t have either (well, as tame as this is probably reading, writing this helps).